What most fear is the absence of knowing absolute certainty of the outcome. If you remove yourself from hindsight/future forecasting, live in the now, and be comfortable with the idea of knowing that you can not, "NOT" choose you'll dilute the emotional investment and find more of a rational and perhaps easier choice. Not making a decision is making a decision. In the end that was the choice you made, and it doesn't matter how hard it was to make it. It matters that you did. I've come to find that most of our daily decisions are between what is right and what is easy. Though I wouldn't ask myself if I've made the "right" choice; I would simply make the choice if find more rational and embrace it regardless of the outcome. To keep myself in check I play my ABC game ( don't Accuse, Don't Blame, Don't Complain) good way to remove regret and/or any self loathing... okay i'm done! late hours do this to me..... smiles :)
Chad and Iggy enjoy walking backwards, having awkward dialogues in elevators in the presence of strangers, laying down in local Wal-Mart aisles, looking for double rainbows, quoting Chappelle Show, not taking ecstasy and then going to raves, and avoiding eye contact.